November 23, 2014

"Why do I feel so feeble... the wind could seriously blow me over." ~ Letti

Today was quiet for the most part... the cravings remain fast and furious and the days seem long because we can't wait for the steroids to be over! 

 

We tried to venture out to Barnes and Noble but Lexie was very winded and tired. Her hemoglobin is borderline and I have a feeling she will need a blood transfusion in cli...nic on Tuesday. 

 

Lexie has me watching so many of her shows that now all I can think of is "The Vampire Diaries" when I see a blood bag! We really need to get back to reality! 

Anxious to get the bone marrow aspiration and spinal tap done on Wednesday and then no chemo for 8 days! There's always a "but"... But then the following Friday Lexie will be admitted to the hospital again for high dose cytoxan and ARA-C. 

 

Yuck! I hate this!  

My mom is flying back to AZ for a week on Tuesday and Steve, Kali, Mack and Lexie's friend Lauren are coming down for the holiday. We are really looking forward to being together. 

Please continue to pray for healing, for strength and protection. 

Lexie has starting asking about what happens if she has a relapse. We talked awhile about God's character and how He already knows His plan for her life. We aren't going to waste our energy trying to figure out what will happen, we will rest knowing He is in control. No one can add a day or take away from Lexie's life. And when we get scared, we can trust Him to be merciful, loving, and faithful. We don't have to know how it all turns out... we can let our fears go and surrender control of our lives while trusting in His constant care. And then I reassured her that all the while we will be constantly and relentlessly bringing her before the throne, pleading for healing and asking God to examine and see the desires of our hearts.

"Father in Heaven, I call on you now to be near. Lord forgive me of all my sins. I am so undeserving of your mercy and grace and yet You freely give it to me. Thank you Lord. Almighty God, by the power that resides in the NAME of JESUS, by His blood that was shed on the cross for us, Lord we ask that you heal Lexie. Fill her bone marrow with the precious and perfect blood that was shed by Your son... the ultimate sacrifice so that we could have a relationship with You. Father, speak the words and command the cancer to leave Lexie's body immediately. Lay Your hand on her head and show her your Greatness, let her see You and know You more. Let her feel Your presence and experience You. Show her what The Prince of Peace looks like. Run every negative thought out of her mind and bind satan from all of his attacks on her as she is fragile and vulnerable and he knows it. Place a hedge of protection around her. Protect her from all physical harm, emotional harm, mental harm and spiritual harm. Keep her safe Lord. Lord we are scared, we are tired and weary, we've seen a lot of suffering and we have seen the work of Your amazing hand. To you be ALL the glory for everything good in our lives. Lord your faithfulness has withstood the test of time and I trust you with everything we have, including Lexie's life. Let the Holy Spirit intercede on her behalf and yearn and groan and utter words that only You know pleading for more mercy and more grace and more healing for our family. You are the same God who healed the blind man, who healed the leper and raised Your son from the grave. How easy it is for you to rid Lexie's body of cancer and restore her health. Father we ask all these things in the precious name of Jesus, Amen"

Isaiah 54:10 "Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed, " says the Lord who has compassion on you.